If I were forty or fifty, I'd probably be okay with writing in a narrow vein. But I feel like I ought to be experimenting more.
[I read this entry over this morning and realised it sounds pretty weepy, which I didn't intend. I'm worried people think I was fishing for compliments or something.]
I've definitely lost touch with some ecstatic experiences but the ability to be ecstatic remains.
That's an important point. But so many ecstatic experiences are solitary ones; to have them in a community seems like the really rewarding part of fandom, to me, and it's like I've always missed out on that (and other people too -- one of those fandom academics could do a study on people who stay on the periphery of fandom).
Maybe all this just means I need a girlfriend to share my ecstatic experiences with. Or something. *emo tears*
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Date: 2006-01-10 03:19 pm (UTC)[I read this entry over this morning and realised it sounds pretty weepy, which I didn't intend. I'm worried people think I was fishing for compliments or something.]
I've definitely lost touch with some ecstatic experiences but the ability to be ecstatic remains.
That's an important point. But so many ecstatic experiences are solitary ones; to have them in a community seems like the really rewarding part of fandom, to me, and it's like I've always missed out on that (and other people too -- one of those fandom academics could do a study on people who stay on the periphery of fandom).
Maybe all this just means I need a girlfriend to share my ecstatic experiences with. Or something. *emo tears*